First week of school; mentally exhausted. Workload increases as the term goes, one should not be too surprised by it. Not sure if it is the back to school after a long holiday syndrome, I seem to have gone into a semi-suffocation mode. Or it might be due to the not so pleasant day 1 of school where we were put in a position that we were not suppose to be in. A bad start to a whole new semester.
After which, we are again distressed about yet another monday class. Not too sure why the strong bitterness this time, not as if 5 credits is foreign to me, but somehow I find it so much more overwhelming this time.
What *U said made me stop and think. I could run away this one time, but how many times could I do that? Are term papers and projects just an excuse to get myself out of it?
Though after some long and difficult struggle, I still decided to run away like a coward. I thought I would feel better, but honestly, I dont'. Human's are just so difficult to satisfy and will never be truly satisfied.
I know I might be thinking just a tact too much and probably brought all the headaches upon myself, but I just cant' help it.
My brain is having a for-and-against battle and it is tearing me apart.
I need a distraction to bring me out of this misery.
11:52 PM
BeautifullyImperfect 。
Ladyayé ღ
Quietness’ are endearing, yet loneliness is feared. Tried in vain to portray the real me, but realized, not every opinion matters. Trust; a word not easily achieves, but once I do, it will be promised for life. Experiences have taught me to remain unaltered despite the commotion out there. I will not attempt to explain myself to anyone whom is just not worth the effort. Randomization and Unpredictability is me. Fashionista always rules. I ♥ U for the ME you accepted and love, for enduring all my craziness and sharing my ups & downs.
